It’s Friday night (well, early Saturday morning by now), and I’m glad another week is over. This week was a little rough from an academic standpoint, in that my motivation has slipped to probably the lowest point since I started two months ago. I’m hoping to turn that around for the coming weeks, however, since I need to maintain high grades both for the WUE scholarship and also for the sake of transferring in the future.

For those of you who don’t already know, I’ve officially chosen a major. Although I’ve been enrolled in Computer Science, it’s been entirely a time filler to allow me time to discover which direction I actually want to want to go. I’ve given a lot of thought to the question of “where do I want to go with my life” over the last few months, largely prompted by overwhelming feelings of purposelessness apathy. What I’ve come to the realization of is that I want to teach. I’ve considered the thought many times in passing over the past few years, but I’ve never, until now, been willing to accept it as a career path. As much as I hate to admit it, I’ve always been turned off by the poor pay of the position, which is likely the primary reason why I’ve always disregarded the idea in the past.

I want to teach history (and perhaps philosophy as well, if I were to be so lucky) at the high school level. I’ve decided on high school because it’s an age where students have a great aptitude for learning, and at the same time, unlike at a university, I would be able to get to know and develop relationships with students. I’ve very much valued the relationships that I’ve developed with several of my high school teachers, and I can only imagine that these relationships (at least for the most part) were equally rewarding for them as well. I want that. I’ve decided on history because 1) it’s related to the arts and humanities, which means that it’s a subject which has lasting value and 2) it’s a subject that I personally enjoy, and would enjoy learning in order to be able to teach. I’m also giving some small consideration to teaching computer science. Although computers have none of the lasting value to society and humanity, I think I would very much enjoy teaching in that sector as well.

I’d very much like to teach abroad, both as a means of exploring and experiencing the world and as a means of having a positive impact on humanity as a whole. Odds are that I’ll end up primarily teaching in the United States, but my goal is, at this point, to teach abroad as much as possible.

There’s a lot more with this that I’d like to expound on, but it’s getting late and the little I’ve written I’m dissatisfied with but too lazy to go back and rewrite. I’ll undoubtedly be writing more about this in the days to come, but this will need to suffice for now.